April 16, 2010

this little piggy...

Committing to a blog at the beginning of the year, only to take an unannounced, unexpectedly long break the third month in, wasn't exactly what I had in mind.  I've been quite anxious about having dropped all communication without explanation.  So this, the first chance I've had to do so, is my apology for leaving you in a dark, postless blogosphere.

"I'm sorry!"

With tonight being the first official night of my newfound life, now would be a good time to tell you that I've made a decision.  [For those of you that have gone through an emotionally traumatic situation can understand that making one decision, or even just part of a decision, is huge.  HUGE.]

Instead of putting focus on upcycling the fabric and finds from my studio bins, I'm going to try to eeck out some positive energy towards upcycling myself and my newfound life. 

There.  I said it. 

I am agreeing with my gut that I need to take a break. 

I will however, share my good days with you along the way.  You know the ones that have a bonus bottle of "Look! 20% Extra Creative Energy!" attached?

I used my extra 20% tonight actually.  After a slight battle with my pj's and PPV that I didn't think I as going to win, I decided to take a friend's advice of treating myself to a good night out. 

I didn't have the energy to prance around town all gussied up, ending the night taste-testing new, frilly cosmo's at The Loft like my concious was telling me to do.  So I went window shopping instead. 

After only a little browsing and one "oh my god I think I'm going to cry right here in the store!" scare, I managed to find exactly what I didn't know I was looking for:

This may appear to you to be the last thing that a puffy-eyed and probably a little "Ew, steer clear of that lady"-ish shopper would ever need to purchase.  But oddly enough, this sweet little piggy bank will actually hold so much more for me than positive energy and money.

To me it's a symbol of:

1. New beginning:  The pig is one of three animals shown on the Buddhist Wheel of Rebirth, and represents desire and attachment

2. Comfort: My mom had her handmade piggy bank in the living room my entire minor existence.  I was comforted by the memory of that tonight, and realized that Milo may need that same memory of comfort in his future.

3. Strength: Literally.  I'm planning on filling it to the brim with coins so it's heavy enough to support my leaning tv stand until I can afford to buy a new one.

Day one of my new life adventure will feel complete after my last gingersnap cookie and sip of chai. 

Day two will bring me to Handmade Detroit's Craft Revival.  I may come home inspired enough to sew something for you, but don't hold me to that :wink: